It's been restful. And other things besides writing have been interesting. I suppose the cat's all out of the bag to my family now that I've been playing cello and banjo in a Grateful Dead cover band. I don't have much more to say about that other than It Is SOOO fun!
I did always think I'd come back to music--that a lot of writing over the past decade was a function of being home with toddlers and that as soon as I could blow this joint (you know, for a few hours at a time) I probably would.
I now have two, almost three teenagers in the house. My oldest gets his driver's license this year. This summer has been quite wonderful, because I both enjoy being home with them all, and can also pop out on my own if I need to go to the grocery, or for a jog (or to band practice!).
My youngest starts preschool this month and for the first time in fifteen years, I will have actual hours of the week where no one is in the house but me. I don't know whether to rejoice or panic.
So...I suppose it's time to cast around again for an identity:
- What do you call a forty something stay at home mom, who has no kids left at home during the day?
- What if she now thinks she's a musician in a hippy band, while also being a blogger who meditates on scripture?
- Does she maybe need to grow up and get a real job?
- And if so, why--presuming her husband's job meets the financial needs of the family?
- Is it ok for her to blog if she is privileged, and spends most of her life in pursuit of frivolous artsy-fartsy things?
- Is it ok for her to blog if she has nothing profound to say to the many dreadful cultural concerns of the day, and accidentally posts something shallow on the same day as a terrorist attack?
- Is it ok for her to like life pretty well, and to have no messy, messy, complicated, personal/spiritual problems to discuss online?
- Would you really want to read what this woman has to say about anything, much less about Jesus?
- AND! What if she perpetually disregards blogging best practices by posting irregularly, using boring titles, omitting pictures, and failing to promote her blog on social media?
These are questions I'm asking myself.
Until I have answers, here's a post I wrote at Image a couple weeks ago.